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[Aug. 31st, 2011|11:11 pm] |
And I will crawl, theres things that aren't worth giving up I know.
But I won't let this get me I will fight.
You live the life you're given with the storms outside
some days all I do is watch the sky.
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[Sep. 18th, 2008|03:42 pm] |
I can't help but feel like my life is changing faster than i can comprehend.
i quit my job 2 weeks ago.
hello unemployment.
new job at the end of december, i only have $1400 to live off of, wish me luck! |
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| '87 |
[Mar. 7th, 2008|11:58 am] |
| [ | spinning |
| | '87- sam the boy | ] |
i think this is a really good thing we've got going
without knowing
what comes next
i think i could be happy with you for a long time
if you're all mine
what comes next?
yes. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 24th, 2007|07:00 am] |
i'm still awake from yesterday.
i hate my life right now.
i have work in 2 hrs.
i'm not going to sleep at all until 4pm when i come home from class.
i just did an entire project by myself for my group. i'm going to rat those assholes out for not doing their parts.
i also just wrote a paper about the project and in my conclusion i talked about how it was the shittiest project i've ever done and i think it's fucking ridiculous that we had do to it over break since obv' no one is going to do a project on their spring break.
i'm suppose to write six journal entries for the same class but fuck that shit.
hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.hate.
today this is all that is going to be in my body:
and maybe food too. |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 17th, 2007|12:05 pm] |
i'm sick again. i feel like death.
ps. be safe tonight! |
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| wish list. |
[Mar. 11th, 2007|01:00 pm] |
| [ | spinning |
| | the ransom ep- cartel | ] |
- a clean room.
- a robot like in the jetsons who will do my laundry.
- my NYLON subscription to kick in already.
- anthropology study guide.
- $$$$$
- another bookcase cus mine is full of books i've read over & over again.
- macbook, please.
- an accountant who will do my taxes for FREE.
- a job that will pay me $100grand a year without a college masters. pshaw, i wish.
- more books.
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| look after you- the fray |
[Dec. 28th, 2006|12:14 pm] |
- I still haven't forgiven you, and i still have a lot of negative thoughts about you but i feel like giving you an olive branch... but at the same time i think i'm only doing it to have harmony between our friends again.
- no matter how far, you're always near me.
- i still don't care about how many girls you date.
- i wish i understood you & your complex thoughts.
- you'll never know the extent of this love i keep for you deep down in my bones.
- i wish i didn't have to save you so often.
- yourestillfatafteralltheseyears.
- you once called me mean & i called you the scum of the earth, one of us is right but i'm not sure who.
- sometimes i wish we never met because all you do is bring drama into my life.
- i miss you... even though you've been gone for 13 years.
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| going to the snow! |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
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so i'm going to the snow for the first time since i was 15 years old. I have no idea what to bring except stuff that's warm & uggs. but uggs aren't waterproof so, will they end up getting messed up or should i buy snow boots, i have no idea! so any suggestions from anyone would be good, PLEASE HELP ME! |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 24th, 2006|12:38 am] |
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all i want this year is for everything to be perfect for them... just perfect. |
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| i'm falling into your hurricane eyes. |
[Dec. 10th, 2006|01:29 pm] |
| [ | spinning |
| | ocean- jordan lawhead | ] |
it's been a while livejournal. we're old friends with a short past, does that even make sense?
finals are next week, 2 on monday, 1 on wednesday. I'm failing anthropology & there is no hope, i talked to my professor and he's letting me re-take it in the spring & i don't have to do my project or paper again! fuck yeah! i just need to do well on the exams & i'm set. this life that i've been leading lately has been uneventful. it's been full of sleep & work... i don't know how much longer i can keep on truckin'.
Like a scar that shows you've healed but will never be the same.- Jordan Lawhead
yesterday was the benefit for children's hospital los angeles division of plastic and reconstructive surgery. it was good seeing so many people again. i wish i was strong enough to go more into depth with this, but i'm not ready yet. Jordan Lawhead performed, he's a pretty chill dude. amazing voice, pretty much crushin' to the maximum power right now. let it flow, see where it goes, hopefully i won't sabotage this one. my mom introduced him to me, it was cute (p.s. she's conviced we're going to get married. cool).
it's winter. it rained last night as i was walking to my car at 12:30 a.m. work hours have been extended, i'm starting to hate life a little bit right now. Christmas is suppose to be about shopping, cheer, and Jesus Christ, why are all my customers so grumpy? i've learned that if i talk in a higher pitched voice and stick a silly smile on my face, they always smile back, and even laugh a little. who cares if they're laughing at me, they're still producing endorphins and lightening their mood.
i'm so sick of some bullshit thats been dragged on for months, can we please just be over it and move on with our lives already? it was a long time ago & i don't care to re-live that part of my past for a second longer.
i learned that a girl i met got into a car accident over Thanksgiving weekend & didn't make it. rip cassie, i wish i knew you better. <3
so tell the ones you love that you love them. and don't stay angry for too long because life's too short for bullshit.
this is what's up:
monday:
philosophy final.
meeting with the head of the Speech Pathology dept.
stats final.
tuesday:
studying for my psych final.
work. 1-5
wednesday:
finals.
thurs-sun:
working.
for the month of DECEMBER (whats left of it atleast):
- finals
- Christmas shopping
- friends come home!
- CHRISTMAS!
- Lauren's Bersday.
JANUARY:
- 2-7 Tahoe <3
- 4: FOB, NFG, PERMANENT ME, The Early November @ San Francisco!
- 5: Erin's birthday. Happy Bersday Spaderman.
- work
- anthropology review.
- 27: Quietdrive/ bowling for soup/ over it/ melee @ HOB Anaheim (WHO WANTS TO GO?!)
February:
- classes start.
- 20: CARTEL/Cobrastarship/boys like girls/ permanent me @ HOB Sunset Strip (Who wants to go?!)- vicki
- 24: CARTEL/Cobrastarship/boys like girls/ quietdrive @ HOB Anaheim (WHO WANTS TO GO?!)- vicki, alexis
- 26: CARTEL/Cobrastarship/boys like girls/ quietdrive @ The Boardwalk in Sacramento (WHO WANTS TO GO?!)- erin
so i won't be updating this until tahoe time, most likely because i'm starting to work more & hating life more and more because of a lack of sleep and over-bitchy customers who want to stuff their faces with hot dogs. soooo, until next time! ps. buzznet soon! extensions soon (maybe if i'm not broke, my hair needs to grow)!
i hope i made you smile. :D
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| anonymous. |
[Dec. 6th, 2006|10:15 am] |
even though only like 2 people read this journal...
comment here as many times as you like anonymously and tell me what you think of me, ask me a question, or tell me a deep dark secret you've harboured for far too long. tell me your hopes and dreams. tell me everything you've ever wanted to say to me or anyone else. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2006|09:54 am] |
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seventeen doesn't feel that long ago. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2006|01:54 am] |
did you really just say the L-O-V-E word to ME?!
shutthefuckup!
i'm out of my mind with questions. i don't even know where to start writing.
i'm going ot bed. |
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[Nov. 3rd, 2006|11:37 am] |
| [ | spinning |
| | plain white t's | ] |
i really hate how once i think i can breathe i have two more exams breathing down my neck along with weeks worth of laundry and hours of homework. thanksgiving is soon, i love the holidays.
yesterday it was 80degrees, today i'm freezing. what is up, mr. sun please come out to play. solar rays produce endorphins when they hit your skin, that's why tanning is so addicting. i'm an addict for dramatics, i confuse the two with love. i often wonder if i like th endorphins or the golden brown glow.
the fray. dec. 15
jack's mannequin. dec 6
i hate the sound of things scraping against my teeth, it gives me the quivers. lately i've been getting hit on by jailbait, that's what i get for looking 12years old. work is amazing, we got hot dogs on buns today, i'm not even joking.
i'm off, you're on. i'm cold, you're hot. i'm done, you're just starting. nothing seems to mesh, and the universe works against us. i don't want you anymore, you want me. i'm fed up, you keep trying. i stopped calling, you started calling. i don't get it. i'm done with games, game over.
i really want a fanny pack. |
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| sidekick dump. |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|09:39 am] |
| [ | spinning |
| | something corporate. | ] |
tell me this:
have YOU ever been alone in a crowded room?
my answer:
yes. it's amazing how alone you can feel in a room full of strangers, as if you're the only person in the entire world. it is lonely, but sometimes a sweet face smiles at you and you are reminded that not every human being is fucked up. tonight a little girl said she wanted to be me when she grows up, it made me smile.
changing and re-arranging, life is amazing. i can't believe i thought i was living when i've been missing something this whole time. i was living, and now i'm living large. can you believe this life i lead? it's fucking insane, jetting off on jet planes, new friends, new foes, i don't miss anyone anymore. i've let go of a lot of pented up anger, but i still retain some within me. I will crawl, there's things that are worth giving up, I know, but I won't let this get me, ties were mended, and some were severed, i'm okay with it. our weekly talks always help me through the week, do you know how much i miss you? i'm okay with just being friends, as long as you are okay with it too.
the count down begins:
2 months & 2 days until: airports, jets, shuttle busses, everclear, patricko, snow, lake tahoe, healing.
we were boxing, we were boxing the stars. |
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| leavin' on a jet plane. |
[Oct. 29th, 2006|04:47 pm] |
| [ | spinning |
| | something corporate- watch the sky. | ] |
it's official.
JAUNARY 2, 2007 (HOLY CRAP!)- January 7, 2007!
tickets CHECK!
shuttle CHECK!
reservations CHECK!
travel buddy CHECK!
lake tahoe, here i come again. i know most people don't understand why i'm insanely obsessed with this fine mecca created by the ultimate CREATOR, but i don't expect you to understand. it's beautiful, and heals hearts, and heals souls, and heals so much more than words can explain.
dear lake tahoe,
here i come again.
first time in the winter,
i am afraid of the cold.
burr, bite me.
<3 heather
i get to see the most hilarious boy in the entire world, i will ask him to pull my finger. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 25th, 2006|08:42 am] |
nothing feels real anymore.
is this really my life? it's fuckin' amazing. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 23rd, 2006|05:28 pm] |
| [ | spinning |
| | something corporate. | ] |
only in california can we have 90degree octobers. i'm going to the beach on friday!
i failed my stats test. my teacher said if i correct my mistakes he'll give me 1/2 credit, this is sweet because he posted the solutions online. i am a sly fox. i got a B on my philosophy test, the class average was a C, it made me feel good. psych test tomorrow, anthro test wednesday. no sleep for me.
dear california,
please don't ever get cold.
love, heather.
cartel tomorrow night. w00t.
show me your b00bz.
call me if you want to study. you already have my number babeh. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 15th, 2006|12:43 am] |
hiplog.
will soon be updated with pictures from bamboozle. they are not amazing.
love it. |
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